progress that nobody else can see…

Allow yourself to be proud of yourself and all the progress you have made that nobody else can see.

Dear Diary,

I came across this quote the other day and it prompted me to take a hard look at my goals and what, if any, progress has been made towards those goals.

My goals that I set for August were set up to be easily measureable: run 4x/week, go to boot camp class 2x/week, drink less alcohol, log my meals, etc…  But to attain those goals I needed to make progress on the deeper stuff that no one else can see.  (I think this may be true for anyone who embarks on a weight loss journey, and perhaps this is the REAL reason why weight loss is so hard).

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blergh…

Dear Diary,

Today was an absolutely terrible day for eating. As a result, I feel gross and yucky. Like really gross. My stomach hurts and my head hurts. I did remain truthful and logged all of my food into myfitnesspal so I could see how many calories, nutrients and macros that I consumed.

Unfortunately today was not a unique day. Besides the last month, today was a day just like any other day over the past couple of years. When I reviewed my food log it quickly became apparent to me how I gained the weight and why I felt like shit. Lately I’ve felt so good, I never want to feel like I did today again. It’s almost like I needed to do this to myself to understand how much better I feel when I eat healthier. I’m really looking forward to eating well tomorrow and getting right back up on that horse this is the healthy journey that I want to continue on forever.

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a rare night to myself…

Dear Diary,

What would you do if you found yourself with a night completely to yourself?  No kids, no husband and no where you had to be?

I found myself in this situation last night and had no idea what to do with myself.  I ALWAYS have at least one kid with me either at sports or at home.  But last night I didn’t have to rush after work to pick up anyone or go anywhere because hubby was driving the kids to Ottawa so that the kids could spend a week with their grandparents.  Hubby is driving back today.

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finding my fitness mojo…

Dear Diary,

I am so very excited to report that I’ve FINALLY found something that has been lost for a LOOOONNG time… My fitness mojo! I shared with you a few weeks ago that my goal this month was to do two strength classes/week and to run 4 times/week for the whole month. Would you believe that thus far I’ve been meeting those goals?  Yippeee!!!

It feels really good to fill my Instagram with smiling, happy running pics:

Dropped Brooke off for her softball tournament then snuck off to explore Lake Ontario waterfront trail in Oakville. Brooke's team warmed up for their game & I got a shake out run for tomorrow's Iron Girl triathlon. #timemanagement #softballmom #runningmom

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getting fit for punta cana…

Dear Diary,

I am declaring today the official start day of getting in shape for my trip to Punta Cana.  This, dear diary, is the beautiful destination fuelling my motivation:

 

Isn’t it gorgeous?!?  I’ll be there at the end of April 2018 for my best friend’s wedding – I’m so excited!!!

I do NOT want to look back at this trip and only remember feeling bad about myself and my size.  Instead I want to look back and remember feeling confident and attractive.  I want to remember that I confidently participated in activities like beach volleyball, and dancing at the nightclub with the rest of the wedding group etc.  I want to know that I put in my very best effort possible in the weeks and months leading up to the trip to feel confident.

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hello…

Hi there new running diary!

I'm so excited to meet you and share with you all my innermost thoughts and training plans.  I have to warn you though, not everything I share here will be sunshine and roses. As with most everyone, I periodically suffer from depression - especially during the winter.

I've been running now for 17 years and have been through a lot. Running has helped me with many life changes and as I share my thoughts you will learn a lot about me and my life.  I'm looking forward to his being a therapeutic journey.

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