Hi there new running diary!
I’m so excited to meet you and share with you all my innermost thoughts and training plans. I have to warn you though, not everything I share here will be sunshine and roses. As with most everyone, I periodically suffer from depression – especially during the winter.
I’ve been running now for 17 years and have been through a lot. Running has helped me with many life changes and as I share my thoughts you will learn a lot about me and my life. I’m looking forward to his being a therapeutic journey.
My running past:
I began running when I was 25 to lose weight. Then after I lost the weight I ran for my mental health. As that improved I ran to meet friends. I then ran to lose weight from three pregnancies (I have three daughters). After I had the girls I ran to find myself, then ran to challenge myself. As I journey through life running serves a different purpose for me.
Where I am now:
Two years ago I completed a half ironman – it was the most challenging and rewarding thing I’ve ever done in my life. However that training experience left me physically and mentally exhausted, I was burnt out. I took a break from running and fitness for 6-8 months. For the past 18 months I’ve been really struggling. My mind has not been in a good place so my runs have been full of negative self-talk. The weight I’ve gained (20 lbs) following the half marathon has further made running a challenge for me and I haven’t been able to keep up with my running friends. When we run “together” and they leave me in their dust I just want to give up, sit down and cry. This is my own internal issue, and not their problem, so my running lately has been on my own with the goal of losing the weight and regaining my “speed”.
Anyways, life is calling so I must sign off now. I’m looking forward to sharing this journey with you.