I came across this quote the other day and it prompted me to take a hard look at my goals and what, if any, progress has been made towards those goals.
My goals that I set for August were set up to be easily measureable: run 4x/week, go to boot camp class 2x/week, drink less alcohol, log my meals, etc… But to attain those goals I needed to make progress on the deeper stuff that no one else can see. (I think this may be true for anyone who embarks on a weight loss journey, and perhaps this is the REAL reason why weight loss is so hard).
As I begin to meet those measureable goals that I’ve set out for myself I’ve come to make progress on things that no one else can see:
Over the past 2 years I’ve been struggling a lot with my confidence. This all started after Ironman 70.3 Muskoka, instead of being proud of my accomplishment and being proud of overcoming my panic attack in the water, I’ve found myself comparing myself to the other competitors and how they did much better than me, how they looked more like triathletes than I, etc. I’ve also been dealing with the disappointment I felt in myself over the water panic attack. Doing Iron Girl two weeks ago helped me to overcome that and regain my confidence.
I’ve been mad at myself for losing my motivation after Ironman 70.3 Muskoka. Instead of allowing myself to realise I was burnt out and allowing myself the time to recover mentally from the training cycle and race, I beat myself up with negative self-talk about my lack of motivation. Then, when I began running again I was very angry with myself for allowing myself to lose so much of my conditioning.
I’ve been afraid to really try again, and to make fitness progress for fear of burning myself out and regressing right back to where I’m starting now. I’m now at that point where I’m tired of this repeating cycle of training hard for two years, slacking off for two years, getting mad at myself, then getting back onto the horse. In those slacking off periods my brain is in some dark place. I’m finally ready to let go of that fear and try again – and time I can remind myself to stick with it, I’m afraid of the alternative.
I eat when I’m bored, tired, angry and happy. With MyFitnessPal I’m trying to establish an awareness of how many calories I should eat, and establish more of an eating routine so that I can be more mindful of what I’m eating. I’ve made a lot of progress this month and have been able to walk past the snack table at work without nibbling (or going back for seconds and thirds).
I’ve made a lot of progress with these mental barriers to success this month and I really hope that I can continue these!
What progress have you made lately that no one else can see?